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STOPPING RELASPE - RECOVERY

This week. Where do I start? It’s not been terrible - not as bad as the darkness I felt before this 'all in’ thing. It’s more been a manageable level, a dull pain, like the way old broken bones ache in the cold. I find myself questioning where and how this cycle starts. Does it start with food? Or is controlling food how I cope with things that feel hard? I’m not saying I have relapsed or given up on ‘all in’ - but little ‘cheats’ have started creeping in; which I know can quickly turn into bigger restrictions. I have always felt like this; I get so close and then turn back. I touch a recovered life with my fingertips, but then recoil in fear to my ED, my safe haven, as author Nicola Hobbs w

I AM A SNOWBALL 2 - RECOVERY BLOG

Recovery - I wake up and I already feel anxious; it’s quite intense. My heart is beating, blood pumping in the way it does when you step out

BODY AND AVOIDANCE - RECOVERY BLOG

In 'The Power of Vulnerability' Brené Brown talks about foreboding joy, which, put simply is always preparing yourself for the worst, a ‘dress rehearsal for tragedy’. It is the belief that things can’t stay good forever, so you try to desensitise yourself to disaster by anticipating it. Which is exactly how I feel right now. I look in the mirror and for the first time in my memory I like my adult body. Maybe it’s down to the strength training I have been doing recently. I have been following a new programme, one laid out by someone else. It feels good to move my body, good to place my trust in someone else instead of trying to control everything, good to shift my focus to progressively build

RECOVERY - I AM A SNOWBALL

We are just over a week into this ‘all in’ recovery journey and already I feel like a snowball. I often use the analogy of a snowball to des

EVERYTHING YOU NEED TO KNOW ABOUT THE FEBRUARY WEEKEND YOGA RETREAT

Photography by Louise Anne Photography 1st - 2nd February, 2020 It has snowed every time I’ve hosted a retreat in February - something that has always added to the cosiness of hiding inside the wooden walls of the Acorn. We wrap ourselves up in blankets, read the books that Katie (who owns and created the Acorn) has gathered over the years, drink heaps of tea, eat delicious warming food, and, of course, do lots of yoga. The weekends are always super chilled. You get time to relax and create some space for yourself, which I think, many of us can agree, is often something we don’t do enough of. There is a sauna and a steam room at the Acorn, and you have the option to look in for a spa treatme

GOING ALL IN

If you spend time in the world of fitness on social media you will likely have heard of Stephanie Buttermore - the health and fitness blogger who started her ‘All In’ journey 5 months ago. After competing in body building competitions a number of years ago Stephanie maintained a very lean body composition; think defined muscles and visible abs: the kind of body many of us are striving for. But after a number of years she started to feel the negative effects that often come with fighting to be smaller than your body wants you to be; extreme hunger, feeling cold all the time, irritability…to name a few. Her ‘All In’ journey was about dropping regimented diet protocols in place of listening to

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